Baby Girl- 20 Weeks

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Typing this is almost a dream to me. I feel like I should wake up any second now, because I can't even believe this is actually MY pregnancy post!! You all know Chase and I have been patiently (kinda) waiting for the day we get to be pregnant, and go to doctors appointments, and start a nursery, and register, and argue over names. It's a WONDERFUL thing to know our time is finally now after almost two years of waiting. I almost don't feel qualified yet to be talking about my pregnancy and asking questions because it's still that unreal to me. But it's SO real, and I'd like to share my journey thus far. I mean, we are half way….

I'll back it up to before we even conceived.
Basically, lot's of doctor visits. Every month when I was unpleasantly reminded that I wasn't pregnant, I'd have to go in to get checked. Consisted of me getting my ovaries checked, blood drawn, and hearing the same thing, "let's do another round of clomid, things are looking hopeful". Every month when that wouldn't work I had to go back and sit in a waiting room full of pregnant woman, while I was wishing I was one of them. After a certain amount of rounds of clomid, I took a two month break. Emotionally after pills and visits and ovulation kits I just couldn't handle it anymore. During that break was when we went on vacation and I was able to not have to focus on it for awhile. When I decided I wanted to go back and try again they put me on clomid one last time. Didn't work. FINALLY, and I don't know why it took so long for them to let me do this, they scheduled me to get my tubes flushed and start on a different fertility pill. The procedure was painful, but nothing I hadn't experienced before through period cramping, and checked for any signs of cists, blockage, abnormalities, the whole enchilada. After the procedure they told me one of my tubes was clogged, and was cleared from the flushing, and there was nothing else to worry about. My uterus was shaped differently but nothing that would prevent me from getting pregnant. So with that, I continued on my new pill, did the baby making stuff and waited the dreaded two weeks to see if that dreaded period would come. It didn't. By day 28 of my cycle it still hadn't come. Even though I was getting anxious and excited my doctor told me I should wait to take a test until day 35. If my period hadn't come by then, that was a very very good thing! Well, I am finally happy to say it never came! The test was positive, and Chase and I were so very very happy. With all that said, I am almost 20 weeks along with a healthy baby girl, and for those who like to know the little updates here is mine so far!

Total Weight Gain: Probably 1,000 pounds but who's counting? But really, in all seriousness, I never kept track of my weight before baby, and I don't do it now. I basically just close my eyes every time I get weighed now. As long as my doctor says baby is growing and healthy, that's all that matters to me.

Cravings: No specific cravings. My first trimester I lived off of carbs because that's all my body would allow me to look at without feeling more nauseous than I already was. Now since I've been feeling better, I can feed my babe a more nutritious meal without wanting to puke. If something like let's say Funyuns crossed my mind, they wouldn't leave until I ate some. That pretty much went for anything. I can control that a little better now though thank goodness. And I guess the foods I can't really have are the things I want most. SUSHI being the top one. Let's just say that'll be the first meal I have when I leave the hospital. Luckily, this baby girl is so worth it!

Feeling: First trimester was hard. Could've been worse, but could've been better. Every day for me was constant nausea and headaches. I was tired, I was bloated, and I really would've rather thrown up then have that constant feeling and not being able to let it out. Being in the second trimester however really is like night and day!! Everyone told me to just wait, it's like flipping off a switch, and boy were they right! I have more energy, and actually want to socialize now.

Sleep: I pretty much sleep a solid 10 hours almost every night. I go to bed early and I wake up early. The first trimester I oddly woke up more (3-4 times) due to bathroom breaks, now at most I wake up twice to go. I do however wake up every time I flip over to my other side. I've also had a few uncomfortable nights due to numbness on both of my hips. Other than that I've always been a good sleeper and enjoyed my sleep, and I hope to continue that as long as possible!

Maternity clothes: Need them! Since I'm a personal trainer though I just live in sweats or comfy leggings, and loose shirts and sweatshirts. When I want (or need) to look nice I just wear a cute loose fitting shirt, and throw on some leggings. They definitely feel uncomfortable when I sit down, so if I can pull them over my belly I do that, otherwise I roll them down far enough to where it's probably not appropriate anymore. Maybe that really means it's time for me to invest in some maternity pants.

Movement: Baby Girl decided she wanted me to start feeling her for reals last week. I remember the "official" first time, I was laying in bed watching a show with Chase, when I totally felt her rolling around in there!! It was the coolest and happiest moment ever. From then on, I've felt her every day, mostly throughout the day usually after I've eaten, and sometimes at night while I'm in bed before I go to sleep. It's seriously the MOST AMAZING thing EVER. I want to tear up just typing this. I didn't think I'd be able to feel her so soon, but she must be a strong and active little girl just like her momma ;) A fews times I've literally felt her punch me. I probably could've seen my tummy move if my hand wasn't over it. Even today was a first when I felt her moving while I was on the go, shopping in Costco. It's like she's telling me she loves food just as much as I do hehe.

Best Experiences: So far my favorite experience has truly been all of it! Yes, even the first trimester. Knowing that a miracle had taken place and my body was doing the things it was supposed to made it all worth it to me. It kept me at peace every day knowing I was sick for a reason. I also love when Chase has love flashes for her. Not that he needed to, but it proves to me what an amazing father he will be to her, and how much he already loves her. He actually wants to go baby registering with me! Let's just say he was not excited for that when we needed to do it for our wedding haha. Planning her nursery has also been an exciting experience. And once we finish, which will hopefully be within the next month, I'll DEFINITELY have it up on my blog!! Her room is going to be the coolest in our home. All in all, feeling her move is my top favorite so far. I absolutely can't wait for Chase to be able to feel her when she moves more often!

We both feel so extremely blessed. This little girl is changing our lives and she's not even here yet. I never thought I could feel this kind of a love for someone so small and so precious. We pray for her every day and thank our Father in Heaven for sending us such a special gift. Loving this sweet journey.

-Momma Jessie xoxo