Life is Beautiful

"'Am I still a mother, as I have no child with me...' My reply is this, 'If you held a child in the womb you are a mother, and I can think of no one who deserves that accolade more, then those who have had to give their child back'."


I am blessed. Sometimes I find it hard for me to say that because of the recent heartaches in my life. But when I stop and look at the whole picture that's when I know it's really true.

I've suffered two losses in the past 6 months. It wasn't a close family member or even someone I knew. They were little beings that blessed my life when I discovered them as they were growing inside of me. Miscarriage, is a term every knows and uses. Yes I miscarried, twice. But to me I really lost two babies.

Sometimes I feel weak and lonely, and like there is no hope. But when I can feel love surrounding me that's when I know I can make it through.
I know I am not weak, because I am here moving forward even after these trials.
I know I am not alone, because there are so many who have gone through the same experience and even worse.
I know there is hope, because every day I am reminded of it by those who love and care about me.

It's painful in every aspect, but I'm a believer that these things happen to us to make us stronger then we were yesterday. To help us grow into what we need to be, what we are planned to be. It's not a punishment, it's a learning experience. And if you know these things to be true, then you can get through anything with the help of your loved ones, and of course your Savior Jesus Christ by your side, for he suffered through it all.

Ultimately though, it's my husband who I seem to have the most gratitude for. Because he has had to go through these losses too, but along the way be the strong for me. My husband is my buoy, who keeps me afloat when I need him through the roughest storms. I am thankful every day for him. How wonderful is it to have someone so special, physically by your side day in and day out.

Life can be unbearable sometimes, but if we take a deeper look, looking past all the troubles and see how blessed we truly are, we will see that Life is Beautiful.

Love, Jessie

p.s. You really know someone is looking out for you when a little girl comes to your undeveloped and hidden neighborhood selling CHOCOLATE. Oh yum.