Saturday, September 5, 2015

Elliana's Birth Story

Better late than never! Here's the start to our new adventure...







July 27th, 4 days before my due date, I woke up to my first contraction at 1:30AM. It was uncomfortable, but nothing I hadn't felt before with my lovely "that time of the month" cramping. At first I was second guessing it. "Was this really a labor contraction?" "Will it happen again?" I tried to go back to sleep and about 6 minutes later I had another…and then another, and so on. They were lasting in between 30 seconds to a minute, but nothing regular. This went on until about 7 in the morning, the contractions would not let me sleep! Once Chase woke up I told him what was going on but not to be alarmed because it didn't exactly mean baby girl was going to come that day or even the next unfortunately. 




I dozed off finally and managed to sleep for couple hours. When I woke up my contractions were gone. At least for the most part. I was so bummed and mad at myself for sleeping. I still felt them though, just not as intense or frequent. Instead of 5-9 minutes apart they were 15-20. Upset, I still had high hopes that she would make an appearance soon, so I got up and ready and finished packing and sat on my plyo ball and started bouncing!




I bounced and bounced and stood up and jumped around too. Chase went to go work out while I stayed home being active and busy. I cleaned the house, got ahold of friends to help take care of Nelly when the time came, and of course I called my Mom who lived 3 hours away in Idaho. I told her the deal, that I didn't know if baby girl would actually come or not that day, but to be ready! My Mom decided she would get ready and drive down as soon as she could. Which was a very good thing…




The hours past, and I was just trying to keep busy. My contractions starting becoming a little more frequent again which made me happy. My mom finally got to our house around 3PM, and by then I was getting more and more uncomfortable. Around 4PM, I remembered I hadn't paid our utilities bill yet (still not on automatic pay). Luckily, our town hall was a mile walk round trip, so I thought I'd walk to go pay it to keep up the contractions. On the walk there, Chase had downloaded an app for me that times contractions, and since they were becoming more intense and frequent I thought I'd start using it. They starting becoming 5 minutes apart consistently during the walk there, which was a good sign! I was told once they stay 4-5 minutes apart and are consistent like that for an hour or two, you were good to go to the hospital and hopefully not get sent home! After I had paid the bill and we started our walk back, intensity started to pick up. Since they were consistent it was just a matter of time!




Once we got back which was around 5PM, Chase had to go and help clean our church building, something that I decided I wasn't going to do! Since our church building was so close I thought it would be okay for him to go and do that. I really didn't think I would possibly be ready to go to the hospital. So he left and my mom and I were just sitting on the couch waiting for time to pass by. Not even 5 minutes went by when Chase had left and all of a sudden during an intense contraction my water broke! I was so shocked. Chase and I had learned in a prenatal class that only one in ten women's water break outside of the hospital. I knew it wasn't pee or anything because it continued to trickle down my leg. Soooo that meant baby time!! My mom called Chase right away, and while we were waiting for him my mom helped gather my things. Once my water broke my contractions were NO JOKE. Definitely painful to the point that I didn't want to move or talk. Luckily Chase got back in a flash and we took off for the hospital. 



Any movement or bump hurt like none other. I basically had to hold myself off the seat all the way there. Finally, when what felt like a century, we were there. I had a really hard time getting out of the truck, and even walking through the hospital. I literally cried tears of relief, and it made me wonder what everyone watching was thinking. When we finally got up to labor and delivery around 5:30 PM, they checked me in (luckily I had already pre-registered) and got me into a room. I had more papers to sign and questions to answer, which was really hard to do when your body is cramping like none other! I was just getting really impatient for my epidural. The nurse checked my cervix after i had gotten undressed and into a gown, and I was dilated to a 3 and a half. Still waiting for my epidural, the nurse had to help me breathe. Something I guess you forget about when you're in a lot of pain. Once I started to actually breathe through the contractions, it made it a little more bearable. We were probably there at the hospital an hour all together when the anesthesiologist finally got to me! He gave me that lovely epidural, and I waited for it to kick in. Well, let's just say it never fully kicked in. Luckily it took the edge off, but I guess my body was dilating so fast that the epidural couldn't keep up with it. I got it in around 6:30, and by 7:30 I was already dilated to a 7. By 8:00ish she checked me again just for kicks and giggles, and I was complete! A 10! When she told me I was shocked. It meant I had to start pushing, and it also meant I was close to meeting my little darling!




Chase and I and my Mom were expecting an average labor, which we learned for first time moms was 18+ hours. But my body had different plans, because it was time to start pushing! Chase and my mom each grabbed a leg, waited for a contraction, and I started to push. Pushing was not what I had expected. It was't as difficult as I thought, and it wasn't painful. We literally were cracking jokes in between contractions (that of which I was still somewhat feeling). However I'm sure it was all thanks to my epidural. Around 8:45 Ellie was ready to come out. My doctor however, wasn't there, and still wasn't until 30 minutes later! I was laying on the bed exposed with my baby in the birth canal for 30 minute until he finally decided to show up. Once he finally got to me everything was cake from there. Ellie came out in two more pushes…and then I was a mother.




The whole experience was wonderful. We had a healthy 6.6 pound baby girl, and we were so in love. Chase was amazing. My love for him is so much stronger than before. He stuck by my side all the way through, and when I saw him hold our daughter for the first time and I saw the two of them together, I felt so beyond blessed and lucky. Elliana made us parents that day, and for that I could not thank my Father in Heaven enough for.




I love you so dearly my sweet Ellie Mae.

We also can't forget our wonderful friends and family who were and still are so selfless in their service to us! We've felt so taken care of and thought of when it  comes to the endless meals and desserts and visits. We are blessed! And so so grateful.

-xoxo Jessie, Chase, and Elliana












Monday, March 9, 2015

Baby Girl- 20 Weeks


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Typing this is almost a dream to me. I feel like I should wake up any second now, because I can't even believe this is actually MY pregnancy post!! You all know Chase and I have been patiently (kinda) waiting for the day we get to be pregnant, and go to doctors appointments, and start a nursery, and register, and argue over names. It's a WONDERFUL thing to know our time is finally now after almost two years of waiting. I almost don't feel qualified yet to be talking about my pregnancy and asking questions because it's still that unreal to me. But it's SO real, and I'd like to share my journey thus far. I mean, we are half way….

I'll back it up to before we even conceived.
Basically, lot's of doctor visits. Every month when I was unpleasantly reminded that I wasn't pregnant, I'd have to go in to get checked. Consisted of me getting my ovaries checked, blood drawn, and hearing the same thing, "let's do another round of clomid, things are looking hopeful". Every month when that wouldn't work I had to go back and sit in a waiting room full of pregnant woman, while I was wishing I was one of them. After a certain amount of rounds of clomid, I took a two month break. Emotionally after pills and visits and ovulation kits I just couldn't handle it anymore. During that break was when we went on vacation and I was able to not have to focus on it for awhile. When I decided I wanted to go back and try again they put me on clomid one last time. Didn't work. FINALLY, and I don't know why it took so long for them to let me do this, they scheduled me to get my tubes flushed and start on a different fertility pill. The procedure was painful, but nothing I hadn't experienced before through period cramping, and checked for any signs of cists, blockage, abnormalities, the whole enchilada. After the procedure they told me one of my tubes was clogged, and was cleared from the flushing, and there was nothing else to worry about. My uterus was shaped differently but nothing that would prevent me from getting pregnant. So with that, I continued on my new pill, did the baby making stuff and waited the dreaded two weeks to see if that dreaded period would come. It didn't. By day 28 of my cycle it still hadn't come. Even though I was getting anxious and excited my doctor told me I should wait to take a test until day 35. If my period hadn't come by then, that was a very very good thing! Well, I am finally happy to say it never came! The test was positive, and Chase and I were so very very happy. With all that said, I am almost 20 weeks along with a healthy baby girl, and for those who like to know the little updates here is mine so far!

Total Weight Gain: Probably 1,000 pounds but who's counting? But really, in all seriousness, I never kept track of my weight before baby, and I don't do it now. I basically just close my eyes every time I get weighed now. As long as my doctor says baby is growing and healthy, that's all that matters to me.

Cravings: No specific cravings. My first trimester I lived off of carbs because that's all my body would allow me to look at without feeling more nauseous than I already was. Now since I've been feeling better, I can feed my babe a more nutritious meal without wanting to puke. If something like let's say Funyuns crossed my mind, they wouldn't leave until I ate some. That pretty much went for anything. I can control that a little better now though thank goodness. And I guess the foods I can't really have are the things I want most. SUSHI being the top one. Let's just say that'll be the first meal I have when I leave the hospital. Luckily, this baby girl is so worth it!

Feeling: First trimester was hard. Could've been worse, but could've been better. Every day for me was constant nausea and headaches. I was tired, I was bloated, and I really would've rather thrown up then have that constant feeling and not being able to let it out. Being in the second trimester however really is like night and day!! Everyone told me to just wait, it's like flipping off a switch, and boy were they right! I have more energy, and actually want to socialize now.

Sleep: I pretty much sleep a solid 10 hours almost every night. I go to bed early and I wake up early. The first trimester I oddly woke up more (3-4 times) due to bathroom breaks, now at most I wake up twice to go. I do however wake up every time I flip over to my other side. I've also had a few uncomfortable nights due to numbness on both of my hips. Other than that I've always been a good sleeper and enjoyed my sleep, and I hope to continue that as long as possible!

Maternity clothes: Need them! Since I'm a personal trainer though I just live in sweats or comfy leggings, and loose shirts and sweatshirts. When I want (or need) to look nice I just wear a cute loose fitting shirt, and throw on some leggings. They definitely feel uncomfortable when I sit down, so if I can pull them over my belly I do that, otherwise I roll them down far enough to where it's probably not appropriate anymore. Maybe that really means it's time for me to invest in some maternity pants.

Movement: Baby Girl decided she wanted me to start feeling her for reals last week. I remember the "official" first time, I was laying in bed watching a show with Chase, when I totally felt her rolling around in there!! It was the coolest and happiest moment ever. From then on, I've felt her every day, mostly throughout the day usually after I've eaten, and sometimes at night while I'm in bed before I go to sleep. It's seriously the MOST AMAZING thing EVER. I want to tear up just typing this. I didn't think I'd be able to feel her so soon, but she must be a strong and active little girl just like her momma ;) A fews times I've literally felt her punch me. I probably could've seen my tummy move if my hand wasn't over it. Even today was a first when I felt her moving while I was on the go, shopping in Costco. It's like she's telling me she loves food just as much as I do hehe.

Best Experiences: So far my favorite experience has truly been all of it! Yes, even the first trimester. Knowing that a miracle had taken place and my body was doing the things it was supposed to made it all worth it to me. It kept me at peace every day knowing I was sick for a reason. I also love when Chase has love flashes for her. Not that he needed to, but it proves to me what an amazing father he will be to her, and how much he already loves her. He actually wants to go baby registering with me! Let's just say he was not excited for that when we needed to do it for our wedding haha. Planning her nursery has also been an exciting experience. And once we finish, which will hopefully be within the next month, I'll DEFINITELY have it up on my blog!! Her room is going to be the coolest in our home. All in all, feeling her move is my top favorite so far. I absolutely can't wait for Chase to be able to feel her when she moves more often!

We both feel so extremely blessed. This little girl is changing our lives and she's not even here yet. I never thought I could feel this kind of a love for someone so small and so precious. We pray for her every day and thank our Father in Heaven for sending us such a special gift. Loving this sweet journey.

-Momma Jessie xoxo

~Life since my last post~


Anyone who knows me knows I am not a writer, nor do I really like to write. That's my excuse for a year and a half of not using my little blog. However I love reading all the other bloggers updates on their lives and thought it was time to share mine again! Most of my family and friends live another state away so it's probably something I should update regularly. So with that said, a lot has happened in over a year!! Our life has been different but it's really the same. (If that makes sense) I'll share our unforgettable adventures instead of a boring year long update. So here it is:

-Lots of fun trips!!
Chase and I decided while it was easy (childless) we would travel and go on adventures together! Lots of mini trips, a few bigger vacations and so many memories! Let's see if I can even remember in order where we've been this last year and a half. 

Disney Land- We thought it would be so fun to try and go back to DL every April to celebrate the time of our engagement. Chase and I both LOVE Disney! If you don't, you have no soul...anyways, back in April of 2013 we did our one year engagement trip! We met up with some of my family including my sister, and it was so fun! My cousins introduced us to "pin collecting" and we've been hooked since. We pretty much only want to go back for that reason.

Hawaii- Back in September of 2013-Chase planned the trip for our one year anniversary and it was amazing! My first time ever. We went to Oahu and played in the sun for a week along with two of our friends Dani and James, who actually planned the trip separately but ended up there at the same time!

Disneyland of course-I believe the following April we flew down to Cali with our brother Travis and his "then" GF Rachel to see our good friends Adam and Liz for Adams big 30! We all stayed in a beach house right on the sand and enjoyed the beach, the San Diego Zoo, and my favorite,
Disneyland(for our two year engagement anniversary)!!! It was such a fun trip! Also, that's when Travis and Rachel finally got engaged! Such a special memory. 

Caribbean Cruise- Later towards the end of the summer I believe late July, we went on a cruise with our new and fun neighbors Tryg and Shelby. I believe it was a Western cruise that included Aruba, La Romana, CuraƧao, and Grand Turk. It was SO much fun! We really got to know our now close friends, and had quite the adventure on those islands. Ocean jet skiing and fly boarding being some of them. And we ate a lot of food…I pretty much look forward to dinner every day.

Hawaii, again- Going to Hawaii this last November was a spur of the moment trip! Chase had a couple guys to meet with from BYU there, and thought why not make a vacation out of it!? So I tagged along and it was a very special trip for just the two of us. We swam with sharks, tried to swim with wild dolphins (Chase was able to last time he was there, but I guess they didn't want to see me) and went zip lining!!! We also found out some sweet sweet news we've been longing to find out for a LONG time. Baby news ;) 

With those trips of a lifetime (and other mini ones in between) we've grown so much together as companions. Those experiences and memories will always be ours to cherish and will be fun stories to share with our children. We both believe, although it may be different for others, that it was important for us to have that time together without the extra package of children. Although it has been a roller coaster of emotions with trying to start a family, we believe our Father in Heaven knew we needed that time together as well. Which is why his answer to our baby prayers was wait. We needed to struggle through some trials, and then learn and grow from them, before our Heavenly Father felt we were ready. And for that I feel truly blessed, and am thankful he was patient and understanding with my sad yearning heart. Chase and I love each other so much more than the day we got married, and that love keeps growing through all the ups and downs. This life of ours is not perfect, and never will be. But we know it is our duty to grow and nurture our marriage and build a righteous foundation for our future children to grow on. We are so excited to finally embark on this new journey of yes, ups and downs, but with a sweet baby to call our own. We've prayed for her, and we've waited for her. And I now get to experience her sweet spirit and life growing inside me. With these trips of a life time Chase and I got to experience, this girlfriend of ours will be the best yet! I believe now she will bring us even closer together. 

With all that said, we still live in our same beautiful home, same wonderful jobs, just living this amazing life together! A few milestones before I finish my post would be Chase's youngest brother coming home off his mission from Florida in November of 2013, and my brother Jacob coming home off his mission from Guatemala last May. Chase's other brother Travis, who married my now sister Rachel last September! And now Jenaca (Chase's sister) and I are pregnant together and it's so fun! I'll share in my next post my pregnancy thus far...
Xoxo Jessie

One year engagement Anniversary

One year engagement Anniversary. We love Disney!

Hawaii in Sept. of 2013! LOVE HAWAII
Cali Trip and at the San Diego Zoo. Our awkward family photo
DisneyLand for during our Cali trip. This is where the magic happened!


Our Hawaii trip this last November. This was our favorite experience :) We also took most of our photos on our GoPro which I have failed to put up yet.

When our Brother returned home from his mission in Guatemala


Travis and Rachel's wedding 

And our fun cruise with our cool neighbors ;)

We love cruises!





Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Life is Beautiful


"'Am I still a mother, as I have no child with me...' My reply is this, 'If you held a child in the womb you are a mother, and I can think of no one who deserves that accolade more, then those who have had to give their child back'."


I am blessed. Sometimes I find it hard for me to say that because of the recent heartaches in my life. But when I stop and look at the whole picture that's when I know it's really true.

I've suffered two losses in the past 6 months. It wasn't a close family member or even someone I knew. They were little beings that blessed my life when I discovered them as they were growing inside of me. Miscarriage, is a term every knows and uses. Yes I miscarried, twice. But to me I really lost two babies.

Sometimes I feel weak and lonely, and like there is no hope. But when I can feel love surrounding me that's when I know I can make it through.
I know I am not weak, because I am here moving forward even after these trials.
I know I am not alone, because there are so many who have gone through the same experience and even worse.
I know there is hope, because every day I am reminded of it by those who love and care about me.

It's painful in every aspect, but I'm a believer that these things happen to us to make us stronger then we were yesterday. To help us grow into what we need to be, what we are planned to be. It's not a punishment, it's a learning experience. And if you know these things to be true, then you can get through anything with the help of your loved ones, and of course your Savior Jesus Christ by your side, for he suffered through it all.

Ultimately though, it's my husband who I seem to have the most gratitude for. Because he has had to go through these losses too, but along the way be the strong for me. My husband is my buoy, who keeps me afloat when I need him through the roughest storms. I am thankful every day for him. How wonderful is it to have someone so special, physically by your side day in and day out.

Life can be unbearable sometimes, but if we take a deeper look, looking past all the troubles and see how blessed we truly are, we will see that Life is Beautiful.

Love, Jessie

p.s. You really know someone is looking out for you when a little girl comes to your undeveloped and hidden neighborhood selling CHOCOLATE. Oh yum.

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

CLEAN Almond Joys

Hooray for clean treats!
I found a coconut ball recipe a few weeks ago....tried it. Let me tell you it was wonderful!! My husband also agreed! So I made it again but with my own twist of course :) Came up with this....



Almond Joy Ingredients:


  • 2 cups shredded unsweetened coconut
  • 5 tablespoons honey
  • 6 tablespoons coconut oil
  • 2 teaspoons vanilla extract
  • 1 cup semi-sweet chocolate chips (approx)
  • 2 teaspoons coconut oil
  • About 12-15 raw almonds

Almond Joy Instructions:


1. Combine the 2 cups coconut, 6T coconut oil, 5T honey, and 2t vanilla together until well mixed. If you want a different texture, throw the coconut shreddings in a blender or food processor until it becomes like thick flour. 
2. Using your hands, squeeze the mixture and form a flat oval shape. Don't try and roll it because it will just fall apart. You can shape them by squeezing them in your palms a few times. Then place them on a baking sheet with wax paper. (Makes approx 15 ovals)
3. After you put them on the sheet, place one almond on each one. Make sure you press them down a bit so they can harden and set in. Place in refrigerator for about 30 minutes or until you can see that the coconut oil solidifies.
4. Melt you chocolate slowly. I put my chocolate chips and 2 teaspoons of coconut oil in a bowl and put it in the microwave at 30 second intervals, mixing in-between. I add the coconut oil to the chocolate because it makes it easier to spread and form over the coconut ovals.
5. Lastly, one at a time using a fork (two forks might make it easier) coat the coconut ovals in the chocolate! If the almonds fall off in the process no worries, just throw em back on top and they will harden on with the chocolate. Refrigerate if you can wait an extra 10 minutes and then enjoy!!!

Tips: If you are wondering where to find unsweetened coconut I get mine at Winco. If you are feeling adventurous you can sub the vanilla extract for almond extract, or any kind of extract! You can also use dark chocolate or cacao chips instead of the semi-sweet. That would probably make it even cleaner! Also, I measured as approximately as I could. I normally add by taste and texture so feel free to add more or less of things :)




Hope you love these as much as I do!!! 

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

What a year...



WE DID IT! 
Okay, of course we did. This year has been the most life changing year of my life. 


  • Made the biggest and most important decision of my life by getting sealed to my one and only Chase, for time and all Eternity. (whoo what a sentence) 
  • Traveled out of the country for my first time to the Dominican Republic. (huge deal I know)
  • Moved from Oregon to Idaho to Utah!
  • Built a brand new spankin' home . 
  • Learned to drive in the snow. And when I say snow I mean SNOW all of you Oregonians.
  • Was given the most incredible gift and experience of pregnancy. Sadly it only lasted for a short time.
  • Ended up gaining a different kind of family member instead, our sweet Nelly the vizsla.
  • Starting school back up again! And soon, my career. Woohoo!
Every single day good and bad was and continues to be filled with joy. Yes, even the bad days! I have everything to be thankful for. I am so blessed...not because of what I have, but who I have to spend my life with. I can't even begin to share in words how happy I am and how wonderful life is when you have a constant companion, a best friend, who is always there for you. Who supports you, loves you, trusts you, forgives you, and makes you the best you can be. I can't wait to make this 1 year to 5 years, then to 10. All the way to 50 and 100!! And then forever after that! Sorry Chase, you're are stuck with me forever ;) 

Through all the happy moments, and sad moments, and upset moments, and all the moments in between....I would never ask for it any other way, than to share those moments with you.

Engaged

Exactly one year after engagement


Settling in

Two lines, just a faint one

Adventurers 







Happy one year to us




Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Hi. My name is Nelly, and I'm just about 4 months old!

This is what happens when you don't have a human baby. Your dog becomes your hard worked for trophy baby to talk about all the time. ;)

4 MONTHS!! -She sleeps through the night in her kennel without fail. She sits, lays down, stays (most of the time), leaves it (usually) on command. She of course knows her name. She loves attention. She loves people and being social with everyone. She loves to cuddle and hug you, and definitely loves giving kisses...mostly to Chase. She loves the water and is such a good swimmer! She's a bird lover/hunter and has already tried killing our neighbors chicken. Her best friend is Calaya who is the cute boxer puppy next door, Savannah my adorable niece, and Chase of course. She graduated from Puppy School! She's completely potty trained. She likes to shower with us. AND she loves peanut butter, who doesn't?

Just a few of the many things our little Nelly is all about! Chase and I have never had a better dog. Yes of course she annoys me like a fly would sometimes but she has been a great dog and will get even better with age!

I thought it would be fun to share some of my favorite pictures of her. Some of them are shots that I take when she's sleeping. She tends to sleep in odd positions....

Bath time!
She was so little here


Ooohh Nelly

This is my kizzy face

She loves to play fetch

She loves long walks on the lake...

She loves laying on the cold floor after long walks on the lake...

This is how she likes being held. Like a baby

Always with ALL of her toys, and towel or course


Nap time at my parents house

Oh you know, just long boarding like a champ!

She loves Daddy

I can't get over how cute she is

Oh wait, she's also VERY SASSY

...and dorky


And also sleeps like this every so often. :)

This is what happens when you're so cute. Just wait till I have BABIES!! THEY WILL HATE ME! Hehehe >:)
Until next time <3